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Christmas Eve, a cup of coffee, some Munchies, and Roseanne; and I'm content.

Past couple of days I've been on my own, my girl is out of state visiting her family; and so, I've been writing. I don't know if its inspiration based off of loneliness or simple pms but I've done some of my best writing these past few days. I write from my heart and soul, and so, hopefully convey my feelings to my readers.

I'm laying on our couch, Joey fast asleep by my feet. Missing you is an understatement. Beyond my heart, my soul aches and yearns for you. Any part of you. Your voice would bring me the slightest and greatest joy at this point. I strive to call you with my every heartbeat, but as I glance toward the time, my love for you only surpasses my own desire, when I envision waking you up from your sweet sleep and longing dreams. I finally turned off the show that was only weakening my strength to keep my head up with you not near. It was killing me. I hesitate to translate the language of my heart into words because even I cannot do my body's greatest organ justice. I anticipate you falling into my eyes, deep in my soul. Desire me like you did before you had a taste, fall in love with me like you did after you licked your lips. Embrace my entire being, as if every inch of my flesh is an erogenous zone. My mind body and soul is starving for you. And so, I’m scared, that come the twenty-sixth, my indulgence will kill me into submission. Don’t restrain yourself; I’d rather die satisfied with the decadent taste of you, than self proclaimed insane thirsting without you. [122309]

and then there was the poem I wrote, as a christmas present, for my baby brother David, my mother and grandmother:

Brilliant

Mind Body and Soul

Intelligence Strength Patience

Each with their own exquisite talent to

Create Accomplish and Withstand

Many strive for a lifetime to accomplish just one

Utmost fulfillment of the definition

Together, my family

My inspiration to do better

My shoulder to lean on

My love to live for.

Intelligence, Strength, Patience

Mind, Body and Soul

Brilliant

I hope everyone is celebrating the holidays lovingly and having an awesome time. I had a delicious dinner with my brother, mother and grandmother and left soon after. I've been having a hard time sleeping and could barely keep my eyes open, so I came home right after we ate and finished up the third season of the L word. Now I'm cuddled up on the couch, unfortunately watching and dealing with my extremely spastic and annoying cat; can't wait till his mom comes home to deal with his inner tiger alter ego; watching Roseanne, which always cheers me up.

Oh yeah, I forgot, Sex & the City, another show that always cheers me up, is untouched on the DVR list; so, gotta go.

I miss you KMC. I love you.

my family <3

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